Over the 10 years I've been crocheting, there have been times when I've felt like quitting. There's a few reasons for this. I was a singer and music was going well, I didn't have another hobby to break up the kind of crochet journey I was on, and simply because at some point I was just crocheting.
Music was a huge part of my life until it started to feel unsafe. As a female in a male dominated industry, it just wasn't a space I was willing to keep putting myself into just to sing in front of people. Many people said, "just switch to social media," but at the time, I just wasn't able to put my energy and focus into starting all the way over in something I was already excelling at, but felt fear from. Especially after what I had already experienced. Fear of your surroundings is no joke. I would have to be in way too many rooms where I was the only woman in the studio, or concert venue or conference room. At the shows I was doing the exhaustion from always having to watch my back got old. That's a space I never ever want to be in again ever. When I was done singing outside, I really dove into crochet.
After diving into crocheting I started to really lean into creating my own designs. It was hard to keep going with the craft without anything to break it up. No more music, so what was I going to do? I started making jewelry. My pieces have come a long way, but I am proud to see what I am able to create with beads. This helps my brain rest and refocus. When I come back to crocheting I am always bursting with new ideas. Anything you can find to give your brain a real break will help get your creative juices moving again. Your body will likely thank you too.
Through all of this even taking breaks can still leave you feeling stumped. I was simply crocheting with no goal, no passion, and no creativity of my own. I'd find patterns to buy and create another artists piece, I'd scroll YouTube looking for the next most interesting thing to make, and at some point that just got old. In the beginning I didn't think I knew enough to create my own designs. When ever I doubt myself I always think about that empirical statistic regarding men and women comparing their confidence level to their actual qualifications. I'm sure if you're a logical, educated human being, you'll know what the information states. Look it up if you're interested. Nevertheless, this hypes me up to just do it. Just make the thing. Just try this, and that. Unravel it if you need to. Who cares? Everything is made up, so put colors in your hair, swim in the ocean, and buy that thing you wanna buy. When you stifle yourself, you stifle your spirit, your soul! That's where your creativity comes from! Let it free and your creativity will flow.
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